I’m approaching three months without sex my personal D-tox and one of the biggest things I’ve gained is discernment.
My judgment is clearer. My thinking is clearer. I’m no longer seeing people through smokey rose colored glasses or allowing attraction to make me overlook what my spirit has already revealed. I know what I want now. I set boundaries, and more importantly I stand on them.
During this time I’ve also grown closer to God and deeper in my spirituality. With fewer distractions and less emotional confusion, I can hear God more clearly. I can see people, situations, an even myself more clearly. Things I once questioned or tried to explain away dont feel confusing anymore.
I’ve become more intentional about who I allow access to me because I believe sexual energy transfers. When you become intimate with someone you’re not only sharing your body. You can also take on their emotions, attachments, confusion, and energy and everything being transferred may not belong to you.
But sexual energy is also creative energy.
As someone who naturally craves closeness, affection, and intimacy, I’ve had to learne how to redirect that energy instead of giving it awa just because I want to feel connected. I’ve been pouring into my creativity, my designs, my relationship with God, my business, and the woman I’m becoming.
Closed Access didn’t close me off.
It opened my my discernment, strengthened my connection with God, and cleared the channel for my creativity to flow.
Three months in and I dont feel like Im missing anything.
I feel like I’m finally getting myself back.